Tuesday, April 24, 2007

hi.

I have submitted my thesis.
I have booked my flight to Krabi.

That is all.

No. That's all that matters.

Exams?

And don't ask me what I'm going to do now that I've (almost) graduated. Your guess is as good as mine. Anyway, my life in Singapore will be suspended when I go back to Thailand. Yes, I've waited far too long to back to my beloved Singha country.

Hopefully I will be writing a lot more this time when I am there.

Drinking. Writing. Writing with a hangover. Writing with a hangover while travelling. Hello Jack Kerouac.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

EMPHATIC

WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE FOR AN ICE COLD SINGHA OR LEO NOW

Thesis writing sucks.

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I'll be leaving for Chiang Mai somewhere around the second week of May, will be going around exploring more of the north and north-east. If anyone else is going to be in the area during the time, give me a shout out, particularly if you're keen on going trekking at Doi Inthanon.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Chiang Mai, actually

I'm back in C. Mai. The longer I spend in Thailand, the more I feel like I've come home after 6 months of studying in Singapore. There was an earthquake in C. Mai a few days ago, but I'm here now and so far, no aftershocks or tremors. I'm sure the geographers amongst you would love to be here when a mild quake happens.

I took the train here, second class upper bunk. The one we were supposed to take to come up during FS but couldn't because of the flash floods. Eh. It was a less than comfortable experience but a valuable one nonetheless. What was supposed to be a 12 hour trip turned into a 15 hour one because of train delays. I was about ready to strangle somebody when I got off. I'm sure I'm exaggerating, but let's see... how do I best describe it? I think it would have been far more comfortable if I had opted to take the lower bunk instead of the upper one. I got blueblacks climbing up and down my bunk... I'm sure the guys who've gone through army would call me a n00b, but yeah, at least I managed to fall asleep, at least. Oh, and I forgot to take my toothbrush out of my backpack so yeah... I couldn't brush my teeth, which was quite disgusting.

Well I'm here now... going to meet up with Fye sometime over the next few days. I'm also considering doing a one-day trek in Doi Inthanon and things I didn't manage to do during FS.

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I was in BKK for three nights before this, stayed at Suk11 again. Shyuan was there for the last two nights that I was there, and I managed to go shopping with her yesterday. I actually wanted to stay on in BKK for another night or so, so I could club and head to Chatuchak today, but Suk11 was full. Also, was initially supposed to meet Tom because he's doing his job training in BKK now, but he had to do OT so we didn't manage to meet up.

Thailand isn't the same without you people here.

Monday, November 06, 2006

life is good

Stress can be good too, if you're interested enough in what you're doing and prepared to slog your ass off for it. This semester has been bereft of interesting things for me to read and stew my brain juices over... except now, working on my last essay. I won't geek out by talking about it since I get the feeling no one really cares, except that the topic interests me greatly and I look forward to writing it.

I'm not someone who can work just for grades, and there's really no point in doing something that you detest, for "practical reasons". I learnt this lesson well enough when I decided to switch from a psych/lit shared major to being a pure lit major and I've never looked back. Even if I have to complete my BA(Hons) in 5 years instead of 4... even if I'm only going to get a second lower honours degree... I will beg and plead and put aside my self-dignity to secure a place in some hopefully decent university to do my Master's.

Why am I talking about this? I believe in obsession. I believe that moderation is overrated as some of you might have surmised from my hard drinking habits. Of course it can get unhealthy, which is why you need close friends and family to tell you when you're going overboard, but I always say, there's nothing stopping us from toeing the line, pushing the envelope, to use highly cliched and overused phrases.

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Also, I will be leaving for Thailand in the middle of December, and will be back just before Christmas. Do drop me a msg if you will be in the area at the same time. It'll be nice to meet up for a meal and a drink. Non-alcoholic, if that's what you prefer.

Thursday, October 26, 2006

Hello all,
I hope everyone's holding up okay so far. Holding up can mean "barely surviving" as I know I am. I won't complain about this semester because I do it at least once everyday and why do I want to taint this blog by writing about school...

I'm 23 this year... but this year I've celebrated more 21sts than when I was 21. Ah, you know what they say, having youthful friends is good for the heart because it keeps it youthful.

Actually, no one says that. Except for when I said it 10 seconds ago.

Anyway... I was trying to conjure up some Thailand memories when I was feeling down awhile ago, and I cannot stop laughing to myself when I think about the BM-Pub is Mae Sai. If you don't already know, BM stands for Batman. I frickin' kid you not. Think expensive beer (90 baht for small Singha sia...), Thai techno, complete with practically half naked dancers of both genders. Especially guy in tight shiny suit with the pieces of cloth missing in ass area.

Also, sitting by the Maenam Sai in Monkey Island by myself. One of the rare times in my life I had so much silence. No traffic, no music, no mahjong. Nothing. Silence, except for the gentle ripples of the water. Sitting there on my own, with my laptop in front of me as I tried to churn out the project report as SHAMMY had conveniently fallen asleep. My field journal was next to me. It was dark, but with just enough light to write by. Rare moment of tranquility. Dominique was still awake too and he joined me for a bit because Bernard and Shammy are the ones who need the most sleep... I only needed sleep in the afternoon because it was just so freaking hot all the time. That night I remember staving off the sadness of knowing that FS was coming to an end... it was the night before we would return to Chiang Rai. Knowing that I can stay two weeks at a place and not notice lots of things because you get used to it, I made a mental note of everything I was receiving through my senses. The sounds, or lack thereof. The feel of the wooden tables and stools, smiling when recalling nights that Tom, Jake and Haq were with us, and I made Jake drink with me and laughing so loudly that the owner had to come tell us to tone it down. Also, the smell of freshly laundered clothes... I was the only one who did my laundry every 3 days. The three boys were content to wait until they'd completely run out before doing their laundry. How they managed that, I seriously don't know since I had the most clothes out of the 4 of us and we perspire all day long.

I ramble. I must not fall into nostalgia now.

I don't know what the hell happened to my tagboard either, but comments are still appreciated.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Winston's back!

I'm sure most of you are already aware that Winston is back. I'm hoping to organise a dinner next week... yes, I realise that this is the time of the semester when the shit hits the fan. I myself have two presentations, 3 long assignments and a few short ones due in the course of the month. But hey, you still gotta eat right? I will check back with him when's a good day and time and let everyone know via email.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Americanised National University of Singapore

Okay this is the closest I will get to "student activism". I'm going to write an article and submit it to Campus Observer about the stupidity of seminar-style classes in NUS. Seminar style classes last for three hours and was initiated as a move to increase student participation and for students to facilitate their own learning. It was a move, I think, away from the traditional system of lectures and tutorials (British style) to something that is supposedly modelled on the American university system which is supposed to be less rigid. I don't know how classs are conducted in the US, so I can't verify this.

See, I think that the reason cited, of having "student-led learning" (or whatever it is in official speak) is bullshit. Students still attend three hours of classes a week for one module, but academics are freed up because they don't have to conduct tutorial classes anymore. This leaves them more time to do research.

What "student-led learning" effectively means is that two out of three hours of the class are spent on student presentations, which are invariably boring and mediocre. This isn't so much a fault of the students as it is of the system. Given our heavy workload, we can only afford to start preparation for presentations a week in advance. If the article to be presented on for that week is particularly dense (i.e. Spivak's "Can the Subaltern Speak?"), the hapless student usually just ends up summarising the contents of the article. If the presentation is on a particular novel or poem, that presentation is ALWAYS predictable, and the points are never novel or thought-provoking.

Point is, I don't see the point of attending three-hour long classes of which two hours are taken up for student presentations. I find the lecture and tutorial method a lot more effective way of learning. I'd rather the lecturer provide a framework of the text or article that we're supposed to read during lectures, so that it provokes us to think deeper about it and come prepared to discuss it during tutorials, rather than have the student grapple with just trying to understand the texts (especially if they are particularly dense or opaque), such that their presentations either become summaries of the text or article or are very superficial readings and predictable readings of it.

So like NUS to start initiatives that look good on paper but are fucked in practice. I'm not criticising the American system. I'm aware that the Singapore Management University (SMU) models itself on the American system, and from what I hear, it is implemented very effectively; the students are active participants in class and are apparently very deeply engaged in their learning. Clearly, this is not happening in NUS despite the bureaucracy trumpeting the merits of the American system. Which just goes to show that somewhere along the way, we really haven't worked out how to implement the system at all.

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Put it another way, I don't pay close to 4k a semester to attend a damn reading group lor.